Part 3: Questions
I don’t have an answer for you. I only have questions.
Why do we laugh when we actually feel like crying?
Do we love someone so much it hurts and we are too scared to hurt someone we love?
Can we live with loneliness, really?
Why do we just get deeper and deeper into attachment when all we want is to get out?
Why do people not keep their promises?
Why is it that forgiveness seems so impossible?
Why are we so in love and yet so incredibly alone?
Why are we surrounded by people and we feel like a ghost floating in an empty heavy earthly shell?
Can we really let someone down?
Do we choose between staying and make people happy or leaving and make ourselves happy?
What is the price for talents?
In a day. I was surprised. I was betrayed. I had fun. I felt like crying while having fun. I was trusted by a friend, a subordinate while I wish I could just leave and let him struggle with the job alone. I took on another commitment when I just felt like running away. I smiled. I laughed. I said kind words. I said nasty things. I tried to forgive. I tried to forget. I tried to open up my heart. I tried to offer my hands. I tried and tried.
Cant we have it all? Because it seems like, in the effort of striving for excellence, I ended up having nothing. And no one.
It’s such a sad sad thing….