Part 2: Hurt
Sometimes when you go through life, you realize it’s a process to hurt people, and get hurt. In the process of not getting hurt, you hurt people. In the process of being hurt, you hurt more people. There’s nothing you can do about it. All you can do is to grow from hurt, and move on with your life. All you can do is minimize the hurt you can give, so that you can grow.
I’ve changed. I became someone I was not. But it’s in the process. I’m stronger and more independent now. No one can bring me down, except for myself. And it’s all thanks to the process of being hurt.
Human has this strong instinct of protecting themselves. I would agree with you that I’ve grown incredibly tougher and yet incredibly more bitter, harsh and selfish in my life. I’m not proud of it, but I’m accepting it, as part of the process. In the time of feeling all alone I developed my instinct to protect myself.
The truth about hurt is that, in order to stop getting hurt, you have to face the truth. Sure living in some delusions or with a lie works as a painkiller. It pains less. But the pain is there, and it works its way up to your heart everyday, hardening it, make it numb.
This is not exactly the perfectly happy post I promised (deal with it!), but my point is, I’m happy with my life now. I’m happy to be who I am, no matter how changed I am. I’m happy with the events and the people in my life now, no matter how cold and irritating they are sometimes. Was I hurt. Yes. Am I hurting some people. Yes. But there’s only one thing I can tell myself
Deal with it!