Part 2: Don’t worry. Be happy.
First day back at work was … well… predictable. There were stuffs piling over my email and my desk. There are so many things unsettled. And the people, well, you cant expect them to change in 1 week, right?
But I tried to be the most positive I could. Every time annoyance and irritation hit I told myself to calm down. Guess what, I actually did have a good day. I settled so many shit like you can never imagine. I kicked ass in a 2 hours long meeting that I only knew of 3 hours beforehand.
“In this life you got some troubles, when you worry you make it double”. It’s really true. It’s not like I bitch about it the whole day I’ll get paid more or I’ll be appreaciated for what I did. I just need to do the best work I can to satisfy my hunger for growth and for learning. Before changing the environment, I decided to change myself to the best I could first. I will make use of the time I have left to the fullest, and whether or not the point when I outgrown the place I’m in come, I’ll enjoy every moment of now.
I definitely have grown professionally. I know where I stand and what I’m capable of now. I can even prove what I’m worthy of and I deserve, which I had never had the courage to do before. So well, I’m proud of it.
Today was definitely a good day. I woke up early. I meditated. I came to work early. I did a lot of work. I came home slightly late but I was not tired. I ate vegetarian food the whole day (except for one tiny chicken wing which my friend offered and I forgot). I ironed my clothes for the week. I’m designing a web page for a friend. I’m so proud of myself.
So well, let me try to live life without worry. Let me try to live life being happy.