Part 4: Happiness is a full-time job
It might sounds obvious, but the path to happiness is paved with unhappiness (LOL I wonder why I did not choose to be a philosopher. I could have been a brilliant one).
Anyway I had pretty much a, pardon me for the lack of better words, fucked up week. I was so determined to be fully happy and totally holy. By the afternoon of Thursday I already started swearing. XD. I did expect the first week after a long leave to be bad, but there were more ridiculous and weird things that could have been avoided. I just feel like I’m stuck. And for the lack of better expression, I shall borrow a lyric to tell how I feel “It feels like I’ being stuffed to a yellow truck packed with fertilizer and fuel oil, pushed to the cliff by a suicidal Mickey Mouse”.
I realized I took my religion for granted. I am a Buddhist when it’s convenient for me too. I prayed when my life is horrible. I eat vegetarian when I feel upset. This is the first time I tried to do something without asking for returns, and gosh it’s difficult. But I already ate vegetarian for a week now and so far it’s pretty alright. I shall try to cut down on the swearing but seriously it’s hard. 
Life goes on with many twists and turns. I’m gonna be even busier next week with some free lance thingy to come. I just need to remember to leave my frustration at the door of work, and be happy and grateful to life.
I think I’ll be fine. Sorry, I mean I know I’ll be great. This path is difficult, but I’m known for overcoming challenges. So happiness, wait right there, I’m gonna go kick this unhappiness son of a fucking bitch’s ass for you. Shit and I just swear again. LOL.