Part 7: You live, you learn.
Listening to that song from Alanis Morissette and thinking about the bizarre day I had today. Yes, in this life, i learned many things, especially this day. And as my stupid tarot says “Others spend their lifetime to experience what happens naturally to you”.
I learned to win a battle. I learned to lose a battle.
I learned to be proud. I learned to be intimidated.
I learned who to trust. I learn who not to trust.
I learned about truth. I learned about lies. I learned about empty promises. I learned about unspoken responsibility.
I learned brotherhood. I learned competitors. I learned novelty. I learned betrayal.
I learned how to stand up for myself. I learned how to stand up for others.
I learned who I am. I learned who I want to be. I learned how I’m gonna be that person.
I learned to let go. I learned to hold on.
I learned my values. I learned how I won’t compromise them.
I learned to keep my promises. I learned how to make others keep theirs.
I made a decision. I fixed a date, a time, a reason.
I made bad decisions in my life, way too many of them. But every time after a bad decision I learn, I grow. And eventually I evolve.
So I made up my mind. Nothing is gonna change me. Somehow fate by chance fix a date for me. And I’ll listen yo him this time.
The things I learned today is priceless. I just need to stop blaming myself for what others think of me. I just need to stop expecting more out of myself when others could not see me for what I’m trying so hard to achieve. Sometimes I just need to STOP.
So I live, and I learn. I laugh, and I learn. I cry, I learn. I fall, I learn…